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EPIC DISAPPOINTMENT!
I hyped myself up for this change in my life and now I'm beating myself up. My 29th bday was the 6th of this month and instead of me being smart about my decision making, I was wrong for the past 2 weeks. I'm back on track now(day 2), but I fell off, cake, treats, pasta. Here I am telling myself that I am need of a new and there is no way I can meet my goals that I have set for myself if I don't follow what's needed to. Presently, I'm thinking of doing Weight Watchers. I think this will be the best for me, the last time I did it...it was all about the point system. There are different alternatives now and I am intrigued, I have a few buddies who have done it and look smoking now! I will let you know. My work, has the meetings for its employees or I will go on Ebay and order a packet to get started.

My first LOVE!

Welp, she's 3! Wonderful little lady! She has a big personality. She likes to read, dance and sing. She's very outspoken, she gives the biggest hugs and kisses, she's nurtuting and she's a daddy's girl! She loves her little brother, he's her best bud and she protects him with all she has! I love my girl and couldn't have asked God for a better little girl! I love you P, you are, indeed, Perfect:)

The Color Purple

So, I took my hand at cornrows for P's hair again this weekend and I did a pretty good job, but my husband was soooo upset with her hair. He hated it! So, as I was taking her braids out, I thought her hair looked like Celie from the Color Purple. Anyway, here are pictures, practice makes better....

Weigh-In

Mondays are my weigh in days, today I am pleased to say I am down 2.4lbs! I'm very excited as this is a big deal for me, this is the first time I have been absolutely dedicated to my weight loss. Before, I didn't take it seriously, off one day on 2 days...this time I have not swayed. I have been journaling my food and my feelings to address issues instead of drowning them in food. There are so many things that came with this weight gain. I have had so many self esteem issues and body issues and I want to have this under control before my daughter understands. I want her to be proud of who she is and how she looks. I don't want her to go through the constant teasing and embarassment as I did as a child and I definitely don't want her to go through her entire 20's overweight. There are so many things I want for my babies, but P as a woman will have to deal with so much more when it comes to being body conscious. I realized I'm not only losing this weight for me, but for her as well. Stay tuned...

Wedding/Museum

What a weekend?! I can't say it was good, bad or indifferent! I will say, however, I had a great time at my cousin's wedding this weekend, she was absolutely beautiful and the family did a great job by having the wedding in such a historic place here in Detroit. Charles H. Wright Museum and although the bride and groom took forever to make it to the reception(I did the same thing, now I know how it felt) at least there was something for us to do. My mom, sisters, an aunt and cousin took a tour of 3 exhibits! We toured the Slave exhibits and it was so emotional, we laughed in some respects and cried in others. We had a great time. I've been wanting to tour this facility for quite some time and I am so glad I had the opportunity to do so.

AWARE, ALERT, AWAKE

I'm so mad at myself. I have been keeping this food journal and watching what I eat, but why is this so hard?! It feels like this weight just crept up on me(10 years). I never ate as a teen to feel good about myself or when I was stressed. I got older and that's what I started to do. Here I am 28 years old(29 in August). I am determined to lose this weight and be healthy by my 30th bday. I have been overweight all of my 20's and I be damned if I am this way for the rest of my life. I am just so mad that when I get in a crunch, I revert to these bad decisions. I won't beat myself up, but this has to stop. As I am learning, this is what I've found:

1.) Plan the night before
2.) Plan the night before
3.) Plan the night before

It's not good to procrastinate, I'm still learning, its hasn't been that long. The pictures in the food diary is a good idea, that's been working and I have also added, some of my favorite people, Beyonce, Ciara, J. LO, in really cute, everyday outfits...that keeps me motivated as well. I will update weekly, this has become a true task for me.

Rainforest Cafe

I have tried to get to this restaurant for years now, but our little cousin was having a bday party and invited us. The kids had a blast. There is a thunderstorm every half hour and the animals make noises and move every 10 minutes! I thought the kids were going to spazz out, after the first time, they were good to go! We had a great time! Can't wait to do NEW things with my kiddies:)