Weigh-In

Mondays are my weigh in days, today I am pleased to say I am down 2.4lbs! I'm very excited as this is a big deal for me, this is the first time I have been absolutely dedicated to my weight loss. Before, I didn't take it seriously, off one day on 2 days...this time I have not swayed. I have been journaling my food and my feelings to address issues instead of drowning them in food. There are so many things that came with this weight gain. I have had so many self esteem issues and body issues and I want to have this under control before my daughter understands. I want her to be proud of who she is and how she looks. I don't want her to go through the constant teasing and embarassment as I did as a child and I definitely don't want her to go through her entire 20's overweight. There are so many things I want for my babies, but P as a woman will have to deal with so much more when it comes to being body conscious. I realized I'm not only losing this weight for me, but for her as well. Stay tuned...

Wedding/Museum

What a weekend?! I can't say it was good, bad or indifferent! I will say, however, I had a great time at my cousin's wedding this weekend, she was absolutely beautiful and the family did a great job by having the wedding in such a historic place here in Detroit. Charles H. Wright Museum and although the bride and groom took forever to make it to the reception(I did the same thing, now I know how it felt) at least there was something for us to do. My mom, sisters, an aunt and cousin took a tour of 3 exhibits! We toured the Slave exhibits and it was so emotional, we laughed in some respects and cried in others. We had a great time. I've been wanting to tour this facility for quite some time and I am so glad I had the opportunity to do so.

AWARE, ALERT, AWAKE

I'm so mad at myself. I have been keeping this food journal and watching what I eat, but why is this so hard?! It feels like this weight just crept up on me(10 years). I never ate as a teen to feel good about myself or when I was stressed. I got older and that's what I started to do. Here I am 28 years old(29 in August). I am determined to lose this weight and be healthy by my 30th bday. I have been overweight all of my 20's and I be damned if I am this way for the rest of my life. I am just so mad that when I get in a crunch, I revert to these bad decisions. I won't beat myself up, but this has to stop. As I am learning, this is what I've found:

1.) Plan the night before
2.) Plan the night before
3.) Plan the night before

It's not good to procrastinate, I'm still learning, its hasn't been that long. The pictures in the food diary is a good idea, that's been working and I have also added, some of my favorite people, Beyonce, Ciara, J. LO, in really cute, everyday outfits...that keeps me motivated as well. I will update weekly, this has become a true task for me.

Rainforest Cafe

I have tried to get to this restaurant for years now, but our little cousin was having a bday party and invited us. The kids had a blast. There is a thunderstorm every half hour and the animals make noises and move every 10 minutes! I thought the kids were going to spazz out, after the first time, they were good to go! We had a great time! Can't wait to do NEW things with my kiddies:)

HOT SUMMER DAYS

We have been posted up in the house for the past 4 days or so, the hubby and I decided to take the kids downtown for a walk and a carousel ride, welp, we forgot their was a waterfall for them to play in and let me tell you, my daughter was the happiest child! She enjoyed herself, so much so that when the water was turned off, she had a fit. M, had a great time as well, he was so fascinated with the water!

Asthma, go AWAY!

My 1 year old has asthma, its a bummer, because when he gets sick, he GETS SICK! We went to Urgent Care last Tuesday afternoon(13th), that visit turned into an overnight hospital stay. He's doing well and had a blast flirting with each nurse who came to visit him. I took 3 days off of work to stay with my sick baby. Alot of his time was spent sleeping, breathing treatments, flirting and taking meds, believe it or not he had a great appetite as well. I couldn't wait to get out of the hospital. His breathing is back to normal now, THANK GOD!

Weight Loss Motivation

So, while purusing through Youtube this past weekend, I realized I need motivation something that will keep me on track while on this journey to lose 50+lbs. I stumbled upon a weight loss journey, this young girl who talked a little too much, but she had a good idea. She took pictures of herself at her starting weight in her panties and bra and every 30 days she took another picture. She taped those pictures in her food diary and it helped her. So, guess what your girl did....YES, I took pictures of myself and the thought of printing them alone made me want to stop eating, however, I picked up a notebook today and I took my pictures, posted them in my notebook, along with my starting weight, BMI, and measurements as well as pants and shirt sizes. The mere thought of those pictures are enough for me to stop binge eating. Aunt Flo is getting ready to visit and I find myself wanting to have all of the bad things I would normally eat, so I needed to take drastic measures. I will keep you posted as to what happens with my notebook....will I keep it or burn it?Stay tuned.

Things kids say..

P has been calling me "Your Majesty" lately! She says it alot or she will call me "Queen" as well. Last night, we were having a conversation and she started it with "Your Majesty can I have a puppy"?" It caught me off guard, but I smiled big and said YES! She summed up our conversation with thank you Queen! I will see if I can get the hubby to follow her lead?!

Mom's One Line a Day Memory Book

My son had a playdate last night in the pool with little Kaleb across the street from my house. Perfect had to go because dad had to work late. Gab loved the pool, which makes me think I really need to invest in a swimming pool, my backyard is big enough for it. Anywho, there are so many cute, cool things my kids do that I enjoy and I get kicks out of and I've decided I need to journal some of those things, so when they get older they can read some of my thoughts. I stumbled upon this journal on Amazon. I'm going to the bookstore to get it today on my lunch. It's so cute! I will let you know how I like it.

Landscaping

We have been in our home now for about 2 years now and I wanted to get my landscaping done for a while. I went on craigslist because I wanted a retaining wall and have been looking for quite some time, I hit a lick! A woman was selling 74 blocks for $25!!!! Can you believe that!? It's unbelievable! Anywho, I picked those up and my uncle came over and put it up for me! I woke up on July 4th and guess who was out putting in all of my landscaping!!! I am so pleased at what he did, my house is starting to look like a home!!! My deck is a work in progress, it will be done before summer's end.

Holiday Weekend

We had a nice weekend! I relaxed, ate and enjoyed time with my family! It's always nice to have that time. It has been so flipping hot lately and my mom has no air at her house, the kids were so hot when I went to pick them up yesterday, that I had no choice but to pick up a swimming pool for the kids, its not much, but a few popsicles and some water, they were happy!