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Monday, January 31, 2011

Recap and New Month Goals

Weight: 190? How many pounds off? You better not be 200+lbs any longer. If so, this is just sad, don’t purchase anything, get serious! What’s wrong with you?
Are you working out each day you are at work? 4 days per week, 30 minutes nonstop!

This was a reminder on my calendar this morning… January 31, 2011. I wrote this back in December.
Man, if I was not losing this weight as I should I would be pretty pissed and motivated right now to do so. I know that my weight loss does not average 2lbs. a week, some weeks I lose ounces and a week or 2 later I lose 3lbs. I have to remember that. So, I will be sure to set attainable goals for the month of February.
January was not as good as I thought it would be I am 1 lb shy of making it to Onederland! Kind of bummed I didn’t. I can say this, my process has been slow, but that’s ok, because I know the weight will stay off. I’m not in a hurry to lose the weight I will enjoy this journey. This month started off with a bang, I was working out 4 times a week, but the last 3 weeks I worked out 2-3 a week and then the last week, my eating was crap. I need to learn new methods to dealing with stress. I am on a mission to learn how to deal with stress in a healthy way. HELP!

As you all know, I am participating in a Vegan Fast with my church for the month of February. I am very excited about introducing new foods into my diet and learning a very different way of eating. It’s a new experience and I am looking forward to it.
NSV: This morning I tried on a couple size large sweaters, very pleased that I can fit them. I will give myself about 5lbs before I wear them, because I like to layer in the winter. I have been taking my measurements and updated pictures with my phone. I am getting a new camera this month so I will begin taking and posting pictures. I’ve had multiple digital cameras in the past and in some way or the other they have died. My new camera is definitely an investment, so I am looking forward to getting it and possibly posting pictures soon!

Goals for February:
Get all my fruits and vegetables in. I had to learn the hard way in January, just because I am eating fruit doesn’t mean it’s all good; it’s still sugar, so watch my intake.
Make the best of sacrificing meat this month; try 2 new vegan recipes a week.
I need to work out with a focus. Couch to 5K, 3 days of cardio and 2 days of toning. My ultimate goal is to run a marathon this August for Breast Cancer Awareness.
Continue to get my water in. I am noticing that while drinking water my skin looks good, I’m not hungry all the time so, that makes me feel good as well. My goal for the month of February is to lose 5lbs. My mind has a higher number in mind due to the fast, but I don’t want to play myself so I am going to focus on something that’s attainable.

Thursday, January 27, 2011


My husband has seizures. We’ve been together for 11 years this year(married 7) and up until a year ago the seizures were just a conversation. I was told he had them by himself and his family, but it was just a memory because prior to 2009 he had just one in 1997. I thought to myself my little sister has had seizures all her life so, if he had one, I know exactly what to do. Her seizures are just sort of a staring off into space seizure. November 2009, he had a seizure and then again February and March 2010 and sometime again last summer. The seizures are pretty violent, its hard to cope while he’s having one. It’s a violent shaking, loud noises and I have to somehow control his body so he won’t hit his head, or hurt himself. My husband is a big guy, so its tough while he’s having one. The worst part of it all is…he remembers nothing. I have to call EMS after it happens. His BP sky rockets to a ridiculous number, he twitches and he has to go on oxygen to wake up. When he comes to, EMS ask him simple questions:

What’s your name? How old are you? What street do you live on? What year is it?
He will answer those questions like a child, he remembers his mom’s address, his age is 10-12 and the year is always off. Although, since this has been happening more likely than not, I have gotten used to it or so I thought… Yesterday morning, my husband had a seizure, EMS came, oxygen, blood pressure and he was answering all of the questions right until they asked him who I was and he said he didn’t know. He looked me right in the eyes and said that he didn’t know. That was really hard for me. After a moment or so, he looked at me and asked if I was alright, that made me feel a little better. But, it was the hard to see someone you love go through something like that in a blink of an eye and he not know who you are. I asked that they take him to the hospital for testing. To make a long story short, he is fine, he knows who I am, but to be in that space, as brief of a time as it was, was brutal. The worst part of it all…he remembers none of that. So, I had that experience all by myself.

He has been taking his meds, but the seizure was brought on by stress. My family, as is any right now is going through a lot. I try my best not to speak negative, this time is only making us stronger. The best part of it all is being able to go through with people who absolutely LOVE you. God knew! He knew! To give me the two most fascinating, hilarious, loving children who complement each other so well, while going through this rough patch. I tell you the truth. My children have been my comedians, my therapist, my teachers in this tough time. If you have children, you totally understand… and if you don’t let me try to explain just a little. I was crying a couple nights ago after praying and thanking God for the change that was coming to my life. My son came into the room and got in the bed with me, wiped my tears and hugged me so tight. He left, came back with his sister, she said Mom, everything will be alright, we love you and Jesus does too! That’s love. When you have this unconditional love and this bond that only you can share with your babies, it’s a wonderful thing. I couldn’t have planned this life that I have, and wouldn’t change it for the world.

Tuesday, January 25, 2011


I'm so excited about the fast that my husband and I will begin Feb. 1! Last night there was a meeting with the men of the church and my Pastor gave all of the men documentation regarding the fast. My husband and I have been going to this church for 6 years. We just recently got serious about the church when our family started growing. We wanted to build a foundation for our children and we wanted to have more of a fellowship with believers as well. Both of us decided to join a ministry last year. I joined the Youth Ministry and he joined Security. While this has been a wonderful experience for the both of us we have never done the fast that my Pastor has impressed upon the church every February. The reason for the fast is to get the congregation to understand what they are eating and the biblical passages to back it up. We have doctors who are also active members at the church and if you have a condition the doctors will also give free consultations during the month to be sure that you are doing ok. I'm excited because the hubby was able to bring back great information regarding the fast last night! A week early, so I could marinate on it....this year we have options!!!!!! You have four fast options to choose from:

DANIEL - Fruit, vegetables, juice and water only. No processed foods at all.

DENIAL - No food from 6AM to 6PM.

DESERT - WATER is your only beverage option for the entire period of the fast. Choose healthy meal options.

DROUGHT - No television or internet social media (ie. Facebook and Twitter) with the exception of the news and religious programming.

I'm very excited, because I know that I'm not the only person who didn't participate because I didn't think I could, now that we have options, its attainable. Before starting this journey, I didn't think I could eat egg whites, vegan cheese, whole grains and zero meat at all. I have gone 2-3 weeks at a time doing just that.

Note: I am not fasting for the purposes of weight loss, I am doing this for spiritual reasons.

Thanks for reading. I'll be back later to discuss my WW meeting.

Thursday, January 20, 2011

Throwback Thursday

...I was going to call it Fat Friday's. But, I was offended by that myself. I have old portraits of myself to post on random Thursdays or whenever I feel the urge to motivate myself. Hmm, as I'm writing this post I will post on whatever day I need motivation, there it goes. After the picture I will tell you how much I weighed, the way I felt, my clothing size and my eating and activity habits. So, here goes:

This picture was taken at my sis in law's wedding(Nov. 09) shout out to Mrs. Arnold! This was a full 8 months after my son was born. I am the exact size I was while pregnant with a 9lb. baby in my belly:( Sad. I was wearing a Body Magic and I was still super fat. I was very uncomfortable at this weight. It hurt to walk up the stairs in my house, my ankles and my feet hurt so bad, I went to the gym once or twice a month. I ate McDonald's 4 or 5 times a week. My go to food in the winter is butter pecan ice cream and oreo cookies and any carb you can find. My size 18 pants and 2X shirts was how I covered up and I hated the way I looked but, I didn't want to give up my food. I feel sorry for this girl, but I'm glad I can look back at her and realize that I am no longer this person. She weighed 230lbs on a 5'2inch frame. That was my highest weight while prego with my second child.

I've come so far and I don't want to go back! Moving forward! BTW, I drank 98oz of water yesterday and I ran to the bathroom 27 times(yes I counted)! But, I tried on a pair of size 12 jeans last night...verdict, they are extremely tight and they zip, of course I need to drop some more weight before I can fit in them perfectly....but I can pull them up my leg and zip them!!!! Made me feel so good, that I had another glass of water and a grapefruit before bed!

Wednesday, January 19, 2011

Scale is the DEVIL!

Happy Hump Day! Yesterday was my WW weigh in and I lost weight! I decided I'm not going to focus on the number until the 1st of each month to see if I reach my goal for the month. Anywho, I was very pleased with the loss, however, I am a scale junkie. I have a wonderful digital scale at work and home and the difference is just in ounces, however, I hate that when you are at your lowest and then on final weigh in day you have a 1.5lb difference:( It's ok, but a loss is a loss. I just...whatever. So, I have made a conscious decision to focus on the actual weigh in day(Tuesdays of each week for the next 18 weeks(weigh in day with WW)), I have become so obsessed with knowing my weight each day, that's silly. Last week I worked out 4 days and I feel good that I am making that apart of my week. I hate working out, but I like the shower afterwards! Getting in the gym is the hard part, so once I'm there, I'm at it and working as hard as I can for 45 minutes to an hour. Now, today, I will not workout at work(the gym has been stupid). I have been getting to work at 6am when the gym opens because on my lunch hour everyone is there and I know its because of the new year and everybody and their mom is trying to have a weight loss deal go on for the new year. But, I'm over these people though. Get a life! fall off already...kidding, but not really. The kiddies and I are headed to Bally's after work today. The last time I took my kids to the gym with me(the 3 of us were sick with a stomach virus for 3 days). I'm not sure how I feel about it. Those public daycares are so freaking germy, I would hate for them to get a cold, my immune system is not strong at all. If the hubs didn't have class this evening they would stay home, such is life.

Update on my Eating:
Fruits and Veggies- still going strong. I have made a few soups, that I am proud of. I'm trying my best to really get this under control. My church is pulling a Vegan Fast(happens every February), my Pastor backs it up with scripture and teaches on it to help you cleanse and have more of an open mind learning about the meats you eat. That begins Feb. 1....the dairy may be hard to give up.
Water- On track, been drinking 72 ounces the past 6 days and I have been running to pee! I am the pee machine!
Exercising-I think I will add an additional day, so far this month its been 4 days. I will close this month out with 4 and start February with 5. We shall see.

Tuesday, January 11, 2011

Checking In

Welp today was not bad, we are getting a bit of snow here in MI and no one's happy about it but...its WINTER! It wasn't too bad driving in it. I had to go to the fruit market, I sat at my desk today and I was bummed because I didn't have any pears, apples or grapes to snack on. I picked up all types of wonderful vegetables and am so excited! I had 6 bags of wonderful leafy vegetables, great fruits and I spent about $23! I will forever, be at that freakin' fruit market! Today, was day 1 of WW(2nd session), I am definitely on again to be accountable weekly for my weigh ins. Still moving forward in my fruit and veggie task. I had 32 ounces of water today, tomorrow I'm going to make a move and go up another 8 ounces. I would like to drink half of my weight in water daily. That is a task in of itself I will keep you posted. Although, today(a little tmi) your girl was in the bathroom and not just peeing after drinking all of that water and tons of veggies today. I'm trying to determine if I want go vegetarian or vegan(I want my dairy sometime). Anyway, moving along this January and still on task with my workouts. I got up and went to the gym at 6am this morning. It's been a long day and one of my favorite show is premiering tonight(The Game), so about to snuggle up in the bed, make sure the kiddies are asleep and relax!

Night Night!

Thursday, January 6, 2011

2011 Update and Goals!

Happy New Year!!!

I have been gone for a little while and I am so glad to see a new year. New Beginnings, a great way to start over and try my hand at a better life. I have decided to set a few goals for myself each month.

Presently I am 203lbs. I'm a little bummed that I didn't make it into the new year under 200 but, I was a bumbling fool eating and having everything under the sun the 4 days leading to the New Year.

I still have no news for the job, I should know by Monday, I asked for a follow up meeting and the hiring manager is out of the office until this coming Monday.

Goals for January:
-Work out 4 days a week at least 30 minutes
-Detox (fruit and vegetables for the next 7 days), currently on day 2 and doing well. I'm detoxing because I want to be vegetarian. Feeling good about all of the fresh fruits and veggies I'm eating.
-No eating after 7pm
-Joining WW again at work, for accountability purposes
My goal at the end of January is to weigh 197. I believe its achievable. If I make that goal, I will buy jewelry(Brighton), that will put me at a 25lb loss. I'll keep you posted.